Aliens and My Brain.

I feel like they have taken over my body and are making me ill and ruining a lot of things. I'm not really even kidding. There is no explanation for the things that are happening within. So.. my guess is aliens. I search for answers, nothing. In my mind I sound kind of paranoid when I read this as I'm typing. But the abduction has traumatized me so much. If you have answers, I need them.. but you aren't a doctor of any sort.. therefore you can't be of any assistance. Only the aliens know, so it is them I must ask. Alien life forms.. wherever you are, return to me. Tell my why you have done these things to make me feel so awkward and confused and weak.

I need to close my eyes for a moment. When I closed my eyes, everything was loud and I felt nothing but dizzy. It's almost as if someone was telling me to just fall back and numerous fluffy clouds would catch me. I know I sound pretty odd right now.. But wouldn't you be too, if no one had the answers you were looking for? Don't we just make up reasons in our head when a mystery is just left unknown? Now I know I'm leading into another subject.. but it's true for this as well as many  other things that when we don't know reality we tend to make things up.. think of the worst but hope for the best.. I'm tired of thinking of the worst thing first. Especially in a time where a lot of bad things are happening. So even if it's like 0% logical, my reason is aliens. If I just keep thinking it's aliens that did and are still doing these things, my only anger will be for the aliens.. because I know they'll never give me the answers, just like in reality sometimes you never get answers. So why think the worst when there are alternatives other than what you  don't even know is true or not and may never know, no matter how hard you search for them.. You might still get nothing.. I'm just going to try not expecting this anymore. -Because they never happen when or how you expect them to. Any good book or movie will teach you that.