Skin Care and Prom Dresses

Fact: "I wore foundation for the first time in..... a long freaking time." Usually I just wear an under eye concealer to brighten my eyes a bit.. Cause a lot of foundations make my dry skin feel even worse and I don't really have much to try and cover anyway. But last night I used my Benefit skin care stuff and a ton of moisturizer by benefit as well before I went to bed. I woke up and my skin felt extremely hydrated and fabulous so I thought I'd try to wear normal foundation today and I was surprised at how well it went on and how...normal.. my skin feels. So Sometime when I have a million bazillion dollars I'm buying the entire benefit skin care line and in full size! it's AMAZING :)

Randomness: I've got a few dress options for prom picked out. Not a few, more like around six or so i'd like to try. It sucks having a price limit though. Unless I find a job soon, I can only spend so much on it. But surprisingly enough for the price, I've found some really pretty and unique ones. The only thing that terrifies me is having the same one as someone else. Though I highly doubt this will happen because 1. I don't know of anyone going to the same stores as me. 2. The store I'm going to doesn't carry any of the dresses I've seen other people picking out. and 3. What I'm looking for in a dress is kind of strange.. I don't want poofy princess, and I don't want show half your body in an unflattering gown made of an uncomfortable material, and I also refuse to look like an fictional mermaid character. So as you can see I'm kind of picky, I want certain colors that look nothing less than astonishing on me, the best quality, only a certain few materials will do, certain brands I like more than others as well, lengths/styles, detailing.. it's all important to me. To me, it's really just a night for girls to get all prettied up. And that's fine with me! but I'm debating on whether or not to put my top choices up to get opinions, or just doing it on my own completely(leaning towards this) and surprising everyone. So yeah. The one thing I will do soon is start tanning. I'm really excited for that, And I don't wanna be burnt looking like a lot of people get. I just want a glow.. cause look at me.. I wear makeup in the very lightest shade.. my setting powder is in "Translucent".. So tanning is a plus for me. So if anyone has suggestions on colors for dresses, i'll take that into consideration. That about it!!

Oh no.

Law school's a no go... after reading some reviews/interviews, and talking to a few people.. I realized its just unrealistic for me. Did you know you can't have a job while in law school? And if you plan on having kids, its pretty wise to wait until your graduated from law school. Yeah.. I really didn't plan on waiting 7 or 8 years for that. So I decided I'm not going to decide a certain career path just yet.. But decide a major. Deciding a career right now is too difficult because then I have to decide all these other paths I have to take to get to that exact point. So I picked a major thats flexible. It's not really a major you can only have a few career choices from, there's so many.. A lot of people don't think of this study as very practical.. or even know what kind of career path it leads to.. But there's not really anything set in stone. It leads to a lot of different opportunities career wise. And I kind of know what i'm going for.. but not quite.. if that makes sense. Right now, my major and what I want to do once my kids are out of the house. But yeah, thats all I had to say. I'm pretty excited. (PhD. in Anthropology)

Other Half of my thoughts

Okay, So this is the other blog about my thoughts. Here we go!

So I never get new games/apps on my iphone but I decided to get a few new ones and change it up a little. It's really weird.. When I get games I usually play them a lot, either until i finish them or just get bored, but These have almost lasted a week so far! Congratulations games and apps!

So, to save a ton of money, I'm really hoping that my Dad goes through with buying this car that he wants, if he does this, I'll get his car, which is much newer/better than something I could afford. So just for my sake, he should. Then once I get a job, my mom said me and her can get Kias. I want a Kia Rio 5, they get 40 mpg. I like that number :)

My little sister thinks i'm absolutely insane for planning my life out at 16. But I like to know where I'm going and what I want out of life, and I like to plan, so I put two together and just plan my life. I really don't think it's too soon to know what career I want and start picking colleges. Though I'm extremely unsure of what public university or community college I want to go to for 2-4 years. I definitely know I really want to go on to law school at Vanderbilt Law. It's rather close to home, close to where I want to live, it's a highly ranked private school, and I know for me, it's probably the best I can do Education wise. I know I'm no Yale or Harvard.. but I dunno, Vanderbilt seems more realistic for me if I do really super awesome at my public university or community college. The most important thing though that they look at are LSAT scores.. And you have to score pretty high. It's a test that all people who want to get into law school must take. I'm just really excited, and terrified. It'd be a huge accomplishment for me and I want to do everything I can to get to that point.

Well, I'm gonna stop now. I hope maybe one person read this one or the other one. Cause my hands hurt from typing.

Half of my thoughts

So I'm unsure what to say, but I always feel the need to make a post. So I guess just whatever happens to be on my mind, will be typed!

First off, this weekend, I accomplished documenting all 60 hours for my permit, now I must wait until April 19th to go try for my license. In that time I will be practicing parallel parking A LOT! Cause I'm terrible at it. It's ridiculous because i'll probably never parallel again.

Secondly, I went to Ulta. For those who don't know it's a beauty store. Their really only in bigger cities, so Owensboro is the closest one I know of. Anyway, I got this AMAZING kit by Benefit, it came with a facial exfoliator, facial emulsion, and moisturizer. I will Definitely be buying the full size products when I'm able to. Next I got this sleepy time mask, you know the ones you freeze and then wear while you sleep, except mine has little holes where your eyes are so you can see, which is what I've wanted in an eye mask in so long. I never liked how my eyes were forced shut in the others. I also got a leave in cream for my hair by macadamia oil. It smells great, but I haven't got the hang of a leave in cream yet. Lastly I got this super awesome smelling spongy thing. It cleanses, exfoliates, massages and moisturizes your body! Then when I got to my grandma's I had a surprise! 6 Lush Bath Bombs. (Lush is another beauty/bath store, there's one in Louisville) I'm really excited to use all these things.

This is getting long, I'll make another post.

Wrong Turn 4 Scared me.

Wrong Turn 4, terrified me. I don't recommend anyone to watch it if the other ones freaked them out the first time they watched them. It made me afraid of snow and cold weather and even more afraid of hospitals and old buildings. This movie basically starts at the beginning, where the inbreds began and how all the other wrong turns were possible. At first, they were all captured in a insane hospital to be secluded from the world because they're inbred "retard" cannibals. But really in the beginning the doctor at the mental hospital says these  inbred brothers are the smartest ones of all and to never turn your back on them. They really are smart and have crazy timing and schemes when it comes to killing people. It was really gross all the times they killed people. Most of the time their body parts would detach from their bodies. When there was like 3 or 4 people left, they actually got the inbreds locked up in a cell, and poured lighter fluid on them, but this girl said no, don't catch them on fire, that's mean. so they didn't and the retards escaped and killed some more.. They ate this one guy alive.. and his girlfriend escaped but froze to death right  before she got to the highway. In the end I thought these two girls were going to escape, and they almost did.. but they were riding away on the snow mobile and ran into this halfway invisible barbwire attached to two fence posts and their heads were sliced off. Anyway, it was really predictable, you know with all the wrong turns, theres a group of people lost in the middle of nowhere and one by one they're going to get killed. But still, it was gross and forced me to be afraid.. Tonight we'll watch The Change Up, cause we didn't get to it yesterday. After Sawyer left, me, mom, and my sister watched Smurfs.. it was too cute :)

Shopping?

I have this gift card waiting for me at my dads house from like Christmas that I still haven't gotten. It's for Ulta. Plus I'll have 25 dollars left after buying puppy food. So I guess I'll make him let me drive to Ulta and get some stuff. There's a few things I might want, even though I've already got a bunch of stuff. Some higher end brand makeup and hair things might be nice. I can't let a gift card go to waste! The only thing I don't like about Ulta is that they don't carry MAC cosmetics. oh well. I'm sure I'll pick up some wonderful things while i'm there.

Movies and Pictures and Paragraphs

Tonight me and Sawyer are going to have movie night. We shall watch The Change Up and Wrong Turn 4. I love wrong turn movies, they scare me but also make me laugh. Like that guy in the picture. Could you imagine being approached by that? But his little face! Awh! There's so much I could say about this picture. Like sawyer said, I wouldn't think it was so funny and cute if he was running at me in the dark. Think of all the horrifying possibilities.. We'll watch wrong turn while it's still day time. Lets move on to the next movie!

I'm not really sure about this movie, but I remember seeing commercials for it and I'm excited to watch it because I wanted to for a while back in the day. We'll have to watch this one after wrong turn because it'll be less scary! Aint them babies cute? :) Most babies are. Well I'm done with movie talk!

Everyone have a fabulous day!!

WHAT!

I worked for 30 dang minutes on a blog and tried to post it and the stupid computer messed up and i lost it! It was a good one too! Well, for me!

I was talking about how I'm going to be a Paralegal (lawyers assistant) and then graduate from law school later on. At least thats my current plan and was a former plan as well. And then had another paragraph about how I love the camera I currently have but when I'm older possibly with a family I want to upgrade to a Sony Alpha 65 or 77, both wonderful, HD, 26 Megapixel cameras.

Also, I'm starting to seriously hate this specific school. I already dreaded coming into this school year after thinking all summer I was going to be homeschooled. I took certain classes that me and Sawyer could be in together, because he's really one of my only friends here, and they're both slowly being ruined. Thank you for being awful and making me want to leave. D:

Well here's my 6 minute replacement blog for that long one that got destroyed. Thanks.

I get sick.

I'm so snuffly and just blah feeling that I cant even hardly laugh. It's useless. I feel like I can't speak because of this awful sickness that has entered my system. Go away, I don't want you here sickness. When this sickness leaves i'll make a more meaningful post. I haven't in a little bit, and it's about time they have a purpose again. But anyway. I'm disappointed that I can't show my energy and excitedness because this illness has prohibited me to do so. It's very unusual. ALSO, I haven't been getting cold. Half the days I've came to school the past couple weeks It's been like I can wear a tshirt or mid length sleeved shirt and be just fine, I don't know why the cold isn't getting to me, like why its cold to most people but theres only a couple times I remember being cold. This might be why I am sick. But I cant help it, I cant feel coldness very much. It was like 20 or whatever this morning and I was fine just walking out the door in this shirt. Oh well. I'm ready for something exciting to happen and to not be sick! Sawyer said I should take medicine, but I really only like the liquid kind and Im not sure if we have any at home. :( I guess I can always check when I get there. Well, I'd say I'm done for today. Bless you all my happy friends!

How do I feel...

about butterscotch?

I want to just sit here and eat a million of them ever so slowly.

I am in love...

LITTLE BOXES

I believe EVERYONE should know this song! It's so easy to learn and it makes me happy to sing as well as others I know. It's a former intro song to the show "Weeds" which I used to watch all the stinkin' time! So here it is... Little boxes...

Little boxes on the hillside,
Little boxes made of ticky tacky,
Little boxes on the hillside,
Little boxes all the same.
There's a green one and a pink one
And a blue one and a yellow one,
And they're all made out of ticky tacky
And they all look just the same.

And the people in the houses
All went to the university,
Where they were put in boxes
And they came out all the same,
And there's doctors and lawyers,
And business executives,
And they're all made out of ticky tacky
And they all look just the same.

And they all play on the golf course
And drink their martinis dry,
And they all have pretty children
And the children go to school,
And the children go to summer camp
And then to the university,
Where they are put in boxes
And they come out all the same.

And the boys go into business
And marry and raise a family
In boxes made of ticky tacky
And they all look just the same.
There's a green one and a pink one
And a blue one and a yellow one,
And they're all made out of ticky tacky
And they all look just the same.

That's gotta be one of my all time favorite songs right there.

How's Life?

It's alright. Nothing bad has happened lately. Other than I had like 3 re-occuring dreams mash into one last night.. and that can't mean anything good. When is it ever good when your seriously giddy great grandmother runs into the forest only to be captured by the creatures of wrong turn while you're solving a murder mystery driving a car in the back seat somehow?

Oh the only bad thing in my life at the moment is Chemistry. I will NEVER know that subject. I'm honestly just hoping that by the end of the year i'll have a D, even if its the lowest D i can get. Because an F just won't do. I couldn't live with myself (well I could, but still) if I got an F on my final report card thingy. But I just don't understand ANY of it and haven't all year. It sucks. Because before I moved here in the 8th grade, I was really smart (one of the smartest in my class), and I've dumbed down A LOT! That's also sad for me. Moving really sucks. My advice to future everyone's, don't purposely move your children around a lot unless you plan to homeschool them. No matter how okay it may seem with them, at least from my point of view, it's really not a good thing. I'm used to it, but have HATED going back and forth to the same three schools. Crittenden, McLean, Lyon, McLean, Lyon, Crittenden. That has been my journey. Three very different schools, all at different levels with all sorts of different people. I wish I could've just been stable at one place, but that's just what happens in a divorced family. And now, It feels weird to be in one place for too long.. and I'm ready for a change so freaking bad.

Sawyer's such a dork, he just sits there and plays those dern video games. Dork. Dork, dork dork dork!
DORK DORK DORK DORK DORK DORK!..... dork. :)

This has no purpose

Ten Facts About My Break:

1. I did not get enough sleep.
2. I had to spend a lot of time with my family.
3. Life taught me valuable lessons about myself and encouraged me to strive for a better future.
4. I recolored my hair.
5. I made a list of resolutions that I feel are reasonable for me to keep.
6. I learned how to curl my hair with a clip-less curling iron (and have yet to burn myself)
7. I weeped the majority of last week.
8. I dreaded coming back to school.
9. I drove a lot.
10. I made choices.

This Year:

-Me and Sawyer are really going to work on our relationship. Not that it's bad, but we want to really better it in general and be as happy as possible together.
-I plan on getting a job, no matter how awful, money is a priority to be getting and saving.
-In a few months I get a vehicle!
-I plan on passing all of my classes.
-I'm going to be very proud of my boyfriend when he graduates and actually does something with his life and learns life's lessons.
-Plan on letting my hair grow all year.
-I plan on being healthier in general.
-I will travel the road of self discovery through many trials.
-I wanna go to church more.
-Invisalign!
..and much more I'm sure but I'm out of ideas to remember.

This blog has required a lot of thinking on my part in which I was not ready to do. So this week, I'll probably not be my best at being smart or attentive. I need time. I really hope my mother will see that homeschooling is what i've wanted for a year or more now, and let me just go on and do it. That way I could do all my work from the comfort of wherever and at my own dang pace! I'm the kind of girl who wants to go by her own schedule and am really going to hate any career that doesn't allow me to do so in some sort of way. I must be in CONTROL! My mom said the other day that I was like a dictator and that hurt my feelings. D': She knows nothing about me. <- how typical of me to say. I think every teenager has that thought run through their mind at least once in their life. Hah I was pretty much joking though, she knows a lot about me cause were rather close when she doesn't show her evil wrath. I went to my nana's for a night and then the next day we went and looked at pretty houses and it inspired me to get a beautiful house and work very hard in life and have goals and stuff. Well I'm done. I hope this sums up what happened and how i feel and stuff. I kinda feel sick.

Bye