It's time

to make a pros and cons list!

I miss my childhood friends

If you've ever moved in your life, you might know the feeling I'm having. Like, ever moved schools. Especially if along the way you changed a bit out of not knowing how to fit in where you're going next. (for me it backfired on me and I should've just went all the places as I am). But anyway, for me I've been back and forth from three schools all my life. I'm finally here and since I've just got 2 years left I don't expect to go anywhere.. But I'm really actually missing the places I've been.. The people I knew. McLean's sophomore class in particular. I grew up with those kids, was with them from 1st-7th grade.. and now I don't even keep up with them or anything anymore. And it really took my dad telling me the other day that one of the girls that was my best friend asked him how I was doing.. that made me realize just how much I miss them all and wished I could reconnect with them. When you grow up with people like that and spend your childhood and early teen years with somebody I think those are a big percent of the people who help make you who you are. Help really shape you. It just bugs me that I never see or talk to them anymore, yet I'm there all the time. I wonder what we'd all be like now. Everyone in that group of  friends.. is still friends. I'd feel like a complete stranger around them now.. I don't want to feel that way, but it's been so long.. I just miss them. All of them. All the things I remember..

Ashley spends money

Today I get paid. Plus I still have 150 left over from the last check I got. Sooo, I'll have around $330 by the end of the day if i'm right. I plan on spending a lot of it quite soon.

-Tent: for camping.
-Hair: for spring/summer, finally
-Shoes: because I'm tired of wearing these worn ones or borrowing my sisters.

After doing all that I'll have around 90 left over. What to buy after that? I don't know. By the time I order or get all that other stuff bought I'll be getting paid again. Hallelujah! I want to get everything that I want pretty much before I have to start actually paying my car insurance myself. Cause I have a feeling after that and gas money I wont have much at all left. So Spend away I will. :)

5 thoughts

I feel like sharing with the world what is on my mind.

1. I DO NOOOOOT want to go to the driving class tonight. Everyone has told me it is horrible.

2. I wore boots yesterday to  work and it was the first night my feet weren't killing me. Comfort :)

3. I'm chewing gum even though i'm not suppose to because of acids in them.

4. Yesterday I was super weird sick.

5. My hair didn't turn out how I wanted today. I put the wrong mousse in it :(

The Cowicorns are Powerful Today

So the great and mighty cowicorns are giving me vibes that today will bring much happiness for me. I think my wearing tennis shoes (sneakers, kicks) gives me the confidence I need to peacefully work through this ever so typical wednesday. I always feel confident in tennis shoes, really because I never wear them. But the cowicorns are trying to point something out to me. I just feel it in my heart and SOUL! Bring me the luck today wise cowicorns. Don't let me fail! Your powers are mighty strong today, I sense it.

to seem busy

So, since the lady is telling me to type and I don't feel like getting into it  all, I will. I worked yesterday and it went by super duper quick. I was happy to come home and sleep since I hadn't in 400  days... I like this song sawyers making me listen to. it's happy and nice.. surprisingly. La la la. I need to make a hair appointment because I put it off for a few days now. Its going to have to be today or saturday.
I don't know where I'd like to go get my hair done either.. We'll see. Today's going to be boring because all my friends are gone... I think I get to make up my chemistry test today.. of course it wont matter because i'll surely fail. Last test I just wrote a paragraph about how sorry i was that I didnt understand any of it as one of my answers. But it's all good. maybe one day I'll think of another good topic to blog about. but not today, pal. This girl is  exhausted. I'm napping later. For real.

The Cowicorn

So I was looking at pictures and a cow popped up, but really I was thinking about unicorns. and I said "baby cowicorn" and then I looked it up, and this is proof that baby cowicorns exist.

Plans and Stuff...

So friday I work and go for my license and stuff but Saturday I suppose a bunch of stuff is suppose to be going down. Like all day. If I past my driving test in the morning, then saturday morning I'm suppose to go get my hair done in like a group of others who are also. That'll be in Eddyville cause I like the ladies there, they're awesome. I'm not sure what in the world is going on during the day but something is bound to happen. I cant just sit on my butt all day. I might do some laundry. And then at night I guess a bunch of  our family friends are coming over for a UFC party. It was suppose to be somewhere else, but they all got the bright idea that it should be at our house.. so it'll be packed with people I normally can't stand. Mom was like, you can do whatever and cruise around or have people over too or go somewhere. Just get me a 2 liter of mountain dew and put gas in the truck if you do. So I'm not sure exactly what the real plan is. Nothing's set in stone. Not with my plans anyway. I was gonna have a girl night, might still.. but with all those people in the house? I just don't know, tough choices! Plus I only have so many friends. I literally went through people I knew last night ant besides me there was like 3 other girls I could think of. :/ Oh well, we'll figure something out! On the bright side, I work today :)

I'll be glad when school's over. I know a lot of people feel this way.. but just sayin'. If I could fall asleep around a bunch of strangers and know I'd wake up, I'd be asleep right now..

A teeny ramble

I'm just gonna sit and type today, But only like a paragraph of rambling today. I keep having extreme hot flashes and right now is one of them.. I'm trying to stay busy so I don't just sit here and burn up. I'm really glad I don't work today, because friday I started having these hot flashes while on my way home and I got really itchy and got all sick but I had to go in anyway. I worked 8 hours every day this past weekend. Saturday and Sunday weren't bad at all though. I actually liked those days. Yesterday when I got home we watched this movie and then took a random unexpected trip to wallyworld where I bought a few pointless things.. eew not only am I hot now but my eyes are watering and my stomach hurts. FABULOUS. What's going on? If anyone can tell me, please do. On another note I'm not so sure about cheer anymore. I don't have all my paperwork ready yet or teacher references or my physical... so we'll see. I have to decide by tomorrow so I probably wont. even though I love cheering to death... There are other things. I'm already mad that I'm working near 30 hours a week.. I get paid this Friday :)

Aquarium

Should I make one now that I have money to spend? I've wanted one for a while to set parallel to my bed in my room when I rearrange it. I'm not sure what types of things I'd like to have in one yet. Not just random little fish cause they scare me.. but either turtles, frogs or like a lizard thing. I need suggestions.

100th Blog! :)

I've reached my goal number of blogs! I'm too darn happy. I don't know how many blogs other people have, but for me I usually write one a day, or I try. Not that it matters because they're never really important.. but still.. point is I met my goal and get to make a new goal! although I really wanna type, it'd just be weird to add a bunch of stuff with this. So I'll probably make blog 101 today :) Bye!

April is too busy

So this month is probably the busiest month for me of this entire school year. A lot is going on either at the same time or back to back. First was spring break, then I started my job, pictures today and more work right after school, work all weekend so I'll miss my cousin's wedding saturday, going to see if I can start going back to church, next week is my driver's test and I get my car, the next week is cheer stuff for tryouts and I'll have to see if work will give me later shifts for that too, plus exercising ALOT and practicing for that in the meantime like I have been for months now.. I got my form yesterday too cause I can't go to that meeting and reading over it all made me nervous, there's a lot to do for it in just 2 weeks of time.. Plus i'm trying to change up the way I do things in my day to better myself and work on friendships and stuff... If I just think about it, I'm never this busy. But that's all changing. I know I can handle it all, because I used to be busy like this,  but it's been a few years since I was involved in so much. It'll just take some adjusting and getting used to. I'm really happy that I have a job, but there's a lot of other things i'd like to do too I hope I can work around and make time for both. Even if everything is back to back on some days, I don't want to have to give something up to have another. I've given a lot of things up in my time I wish I could've accepted or done.. and I'd just like to do all these things now for some reason. It's just all at once and that's super stressful but in a good way that keeps me excited and motivated. I'll just be happy when I get paid and get new stuff.. cause i'll be able to do that now.. and pay car stuff. But that's basically what's going on lately.

Spring break/ Job

So I guess it's only natural to talk about my spring break. I left early thursday because of my sudden need to throw up everywhere and didn't go friday either. It was okay I guess. I don't really remember what happened in the beginning weekend other than I was with Micaela and we had a two person "rave". Not even that. we danced in all white clothes in my room with my black light on. Then we drove so many times to this river place. That was my first weekend that I remember. One day we went to Eddyville with Shawnna and the babies. I drove a lot. Me and Sawyer spent a little time together, I wished it wouldve been more than like the 2 days it was. For a couple days I went to my Dad's. There I picked out  accessories for my car. I never thought I'd be the kind of person to use car accessories, but I guess I'll see how it goes. I get that car pretty soon. And let me tell you, if he doesn't fix the right side mirror so I can test in it next friday, I'll be mad! Cause I tried driving my nana's camry, and it's huge compared to that grand prix. I will fail my driving test if I have to drive that, no questions. I practiced in it yesterday and there's no way. I'm so short I just cant see out of it.  I've been driving grand prix's the entire time and that's what I wanna test in. But that's besides the point. I also got a gob towards the end of the break. It's just checkin' out stuff at conrad's, but hey, it's a job! I work 25 hours my first week(this week).. and my feet were killing me on sunday when I got home from my first day. I think I'll get the hang of it, but I HATE getting people cigarettes!! It's the worst thing about the job. I can never know what they're asking for, I'm unfamiliar with cigarette brands and where they're all located and by the time I get all the way back to the stock of them, I've forgotten what kind. These things go through my mind as I stand back there.. Shorts? Full flavored? What to Red 100's look like? I can't even pronounce marlboro. It comes out marblers every time. I'm good with the other kind of tobacco because every single time they want Grizzy Long Cut Wintergreen and a hunting magazine. So those are fun to get. But cigarettes I can't stand to get. I die a little inside every time someone asks for them. On another note I got pretty mad because therapy cancelled. It was ridiculous. But yeah, that was my spring break pretty much...