Christmas Tree!

Last night me and my sister put up and decorated our Christmas tree. I'm pretty sure it looks fabulous! Most everything is either gold, red, or silver.. besides the tree.. cause it's green. After we decorated the tree we wrapped like eight presents we already had for people, and that was frustrating because our tape was UGLY! So half of our presents to people will be cute and the other half that we wrapped last night are far from that. Me and Sawyer are tryin' to figure out what we want for Christmas and it's not that easy. We're picky and I am not spending 70 dollars for a hat and scarf he'll wear like once. :P Well that's about all for today!

Thanksgiving Break, I guess

The first part of the break was much better than the last half. It was happy and we all ate food and Sawyer came with me to my dads for a couple days and that was good. It went quite well. But then when I came home from there it was all just boring and fights in the family and I don't even remember much past last night. It sucked. The end.
-I feel really sick today, like I could puke all over a bunch of things and my eyes are red, itchy and raw. Go away. Very few people have the okay to talk to me today.

Games

So today I just feel kind of sick and sleepy. I don't want to do much at all. My eyes could just close and I'd fall asleep and be happy. I even slept longer last night than I have all week. I don't understand. But anyway. Yesterday, me and Sawyer played xbox and I killed people on Modern Warfare 3. It was fun but I got scared when I almost died 'cause those dogs were attacking me. I just picked a spot and laid on the ground in one direction most of the time and shot people that were coming from that direction. I did pretty good I think for my first time playin' :). Theeenn we played Skyrim and it was fun 'cause I drove this horse around through the snow and killed some wolves by screamin' at um. They wear really weird clothes on that game and I just don't understand why your horse runs away from you.. I think they should stay by your side and help fight battles and WIN! When the little guy was traveling on the horse we found elk and butterflies and cows. We moved some cows around, they weren't scared of us, but the elk were. Well, that's about it..

Actually...

I'm really not liking school this year. Nothing really interests me, or makes me want to go. It's all the same every day. I don't think many people understand how it is you get along.. I'm tired of seeing people being hateful. Just the atmosphere here and negativity I see every single day. I'm just really ready for summer again, and the fact that I'm not coming back in the fall. I'm pretty much doing really bad in most classes this year, which isn't me at all.. but none of the ways we're expected to learn in most classes is actually making me learn anything at all. I'm just not catching on to anything and just barely getting by, which sucks but oh well, cant help it if I'm not learning. I'm just gonna get this whole public school thing over with and go on and actually make better use of my time in the way that I actually want to. I'm getting impatient. At least this year seems to be going by quickly.

Question of the Day! Also, Fact(s) of the Week!

Question of the Day: 

-What is your absolute most favorite store to shop at? (It can be any kind of store, for clothes or crafts or games or just whatever!) My favorite store is either Victoria's Secret, because theres SO much more there than just bras. For real. Theres those, clothes, smelly good stuff, makeup. It's got a variety of stuff. Either that or Bath and Body Works, I'm always getting stuff from there.

Fact(s) of the Week:

1. Through everything we've been through so far (which has been a lot!) I'm really proud my relationship with Sawyer has lasted a year and eight months as of yesterday! He's my best friend and I'm very happy being his girlfriend! :)

2. I drove in the rain for the first time this week and HATE it!! I can see anything without my glasses pretty much when it rains or is dark.. I drove literally like 15 miles per hour and my mother complained about that the entire maybe 5 minutes we were in the car. 

Sawyer Stole My Netflix and Blog #25!

MY 25th BLOG!! :)

This is true. He took the information from me and stole my Netflix! Now he's just gonna use it for free! My mother doesn't know this, so don't tell her... ssshhhh.


I'm really upset to announce this, but I'm probably going to trade in my phone. It's being laggy, and the screen doesn't work sometime.. it delays itself. So I'm still within my 30 days to trade and I guess I may do that... But I was really starting to like this phone... Oh well, I go through 'em too quick to get too attatched to a phone. So yeah.


I'm thinking about making Sawyer meet my Dad's side of he family at Thanksgiving. He's met some of them, but that was like 2 years ago. Even though they're all weird and I never see them and Sawyer's just scared to meet new folks, I guess it's important. My family better let him go! Orrrrrrr else! D:


Also, I've been searching quite early for prom dresses.. and I showed my mother a few dresses I absolutely loved, but they were like $600 dollars and that's out of the question.. so I guess I'm just gonna have to settle for something a little more inexpensive. Boohoo. Oh well, I won't settle for anything less than just wonderful, in my eyes. And Sawyer's gonna wear an outfit made of "pure gold" he says.


That's all I can think of right now I guess.

Holidays

So it's nearing the holidays and I'm very excited. This is my absolute favorite time of year! Everyone comes together, like family and everything. I just love it. There's always this feeling of happiness I have this time of year around Thanksgiving and Christmas. Even though I haven't even decided what I want for Christmas or want to get anyone, I'm ready for both holidays. I'm nervous though at the same time because my outfits for holiday events are always important and I haven't bought anything new and seasonal lately, so that makes me a little sad. Either way, I'm sure i'll come up with something and have a wonderful time with my family and boyfriend again this year! :)

Dwarf Bunnies and Sister Wives.

They're really cute.. and I kind of want one. My sister has 2 pets.. so why can't I?
Bunnies are kinda inexpensive to buy too, so that's good. Anyway, I'm wanting a little bunny now. Whether I get one or not, who knows.. but it sure would be awesome :).

I've been watching reruns of Sister Wives on netflix for like 4 hours almost.. I've caught up on the entire last season. What an accomplishment! My mom was just sitting there like, "those women are crazy, and that man reminds me of someone I just don't want to even mention right now." I see the good in it though. Maybe it's just because they are who they are though. Like, they come about it in such a way that isn't harmful. It's honest and not not based on jeaously at all and they have perfect personalities that just make a situation like that work. They're truly just a big family and I admire the four sister wives for being able to live in a way that's uncommon to the rest of the world and being so open about it. To me, it shows how strong they are and I know I could never do it. So yeah! That's about it for tonight.

Yesterday

...was great and much needed!

My mother had to work so for the first half of the day was just me and my little sister. We woke up and made breakfast first thing in the morning. After breakfast she walked the puppies and I made jello. While making jello I checked my email to find that my phone was on it's way for delivery and would be at my house later! We were excited and decided to wait for it, but it took too long. At around 1, Shawnna brought Millie and Adrienne over for us to babysit for a little bit. That was fun. We played with chalk and for the most part were outside. As we were chalking my driveway, Sawyer showed up and it kind of surprised me because I wasn't expecting him. I think he just came to my house to take a nap. Because he just went inside and slept for a long time, pretty much until my phone came at 4ish. When it arrived at my house I'm pretty sure I squealed. Sawyer then went home.. so I activated my phone and was really happy. After work, Nana came over and told me how long this really weird chicken needed to cook and helped me peel potatoes for supper! So I cooked, then my mom came home, we ate, and then I went to play with my new phone! :) THE END

Question and Answer Part 2

1. What is the scariest movie you've ever seen?
-To be honest, the Wrong Turn movies.. only because in Kentucky there are a lot of people I see that look so much like those inbred people.. It's just terrifying to me.

2. What was your favorite show on TV growing up?
-I didn't have a favorite but Rugrats and Power Puff Girls are definitely in the top 5.

3. What's your favorite kind of music?
-I listen to a variety, but my favorite is probably country. It's what I normally sing and drive to.

4. What is your favorite video game to play?
-probably the Sims. Any of the Sims games. I've been playing them since they first came out.

5. If you could vacation anywhere, where would you go?
-Europe or Australia, a cross continent kind of deal.

6. What are you looking forward to in the next year?
-Christmas, getting my intermediate and full license, summer, and a few other things.

7. What is one thing you'd change about your past?
-There are a few things I MIGHT change.. but if I changed them, my life might not be the same as it is now. One thing I know I'd change was the fact that I kept cutting my hair. I'm finally letting it grow!

8. What is something that makes you happy?
-Being around family

9. What is a dream or goal you'd like to accomplish?
- Graduating asap, then going to either be a cosmetologist or ultrasound technician, then get married.

10. Are you a money spender or money saver?
-For the most part spender, unless I need to save.



-Would You Rather Questions-

Would you rather be rich or healthy? Healthy

Would you rather be good looking or rich? Good looking

Would you rather spend life in prison or be executed? Life in prison

Would you rather have the power of invisibility or to read minds? Invisibility

Would you rather have super strength or super intelligence? Super intelligence

-What Do You Think-

What do you think about smoking in public places?
-I personally don't like it. I hate when people smoke around me, it's nasty and just they should have places to go if they wanna smoke.

What do you think about the legal age for voting?
-It's fine...

What do you think about helping poor people?
-I think it's great to help out people in need, put someone else first, even if you don't know them.

What do you think about the idea of a mandatory military service?
-I really don't like the army... Maybe just because I hate war. But don't force people to be in it or anything.

What do you think about the legal age for driving?
-I think it's a good age.

Life or Death situation. Literally.

So, it's Saturday morning.. and I'm getting ready for a funeral. A funeral for a person who was once one of my pretty good friends. Things running through my mind right now? fear.. anger.. and of course a little sadness, but happiness because this person is in a much better place than he was.

You know, for all you who think people who commit suicide or want to are stupid.. or the act itself is stupid.. I disagree. Most of the time there's a reason why the people follow through with it. Can you imagine being down to that level? The level of low you have to feel to actually go through with it. And when other people around you, that are suppose to be your peers, your friends, and even your family are causing this feeling inside of you. It's not stupid to have feelings, everyone has them, sad or happy.. It's not stupid, but this is something that should never have to happen to anyone. But it does all the time and it did to my friend and one other person this week within 25 miles from each other. And because of bullying? Why do people get a kick out of being mean? Being greedy? Disrespectful? Do you want to be the reason this happens to someone else? I think people need to watch what they do and say, just think first. If someone was doing this to me, would I like that very much? And even if you're joking.. you never know how you're making that person feel. Just realize the seriousness and effects of your words and actions.. and be a little kinder. I know i'm rambling but I'm taking this sort of thing serious now.. and i'm not gonna be around those negative people who make mean or rude comments about someone else for no reason, especially without even knowing them personally.. and all the people who make comments like "i hope she dies"... that's sad. Dont wish that on anyone.. That's just mean and I dont wanna be around you either. I'm just saying.. I'm not putting up with it anymore now that this has happened..It's changed a lot of my views on things. Made me realize just how important little things are.. how important the people in my life are, and how important life itself is. <3

Getting To Know Me

So, I went on google, typed in something like "questions to ask someone" and I clicked the first one that popped up. It gave me a huge list of questions, that I'm answering. But I'm only picking 10 to answer. Here it goes!


1. What does your future hold?  -Hopefully, it holds a beautiful family, a career I love, and a home I always dreamed of.
2. Who has been the kindest in your life? -My little sister. Of course we fight like any other siblings.. But we've really been there for each other in the worst times, through thick and thin.
3. What is the happiest moment of your life? The saddest? -The happiest moment of my life so far was the short time I had my first baby. The saddest time was losing him/her.
4. Where did you grow up? -A mix of three places. Back and forth from Crittenden, McLean, and Lyon.
5. What was your childhood like? -Rocky.
6. How did your parents chose your name? -My dad told me I was named after a girl he 'knew'.. Mom said it was one of his ex-girlfriends. She's some kind of dancer in NY now.
7. Best childhood memory? Worst? -The best memory would have to be when I was in middle school, in general, I snuck around a lot, looking back it makes me laugh about how I used to be. The worst memory, there are a few.. Either how often and how bad my parents fighting was, my mother going to jail, or my mom having cancer.
8. As a kid, did you have a nickname? -Yes. My family always called me by Nicki. (b/c my middle name's nicole.)
9. What lesson's have you learned about relationships? -Don't rush them and remember who you are as one sole person.
10. When you were little, what did you want to be when you grew up? -Corn farmer's wife. That's all i remember.

Maaail Time!

So, yesterday when I got home, two huge boxes were outside my house. I knew exactly what they were. My new vanity set and bedding set had arrived! I'm so happy that soon enough my room will be complete! I'm finally getting the room I always wanted. I opened the box that my vanity was in, and there are SO many pieces to put together.. I'm just gonna make someone else put it together. Even though there's instructions, I know I can't do it. It's gonna be super pretty though. So will my new bed. I'm more than likely getting a temperpedic mattress, and that scares me a little.. but I went to the store and sat on one, i loved it, personally. I'm just all excited because  I absolutely love decorating and when it's your own space, you can just do whatever the heck you want. Well, that's all I have to say about mail time.