This is a first

I honestly have nothing to type. There isn't much on my mind aside from the lack of sleep i feel as if i'm getting. I have no time for myself. After this week.. on my days off, I want to be by myself and just sleep for a little bit. So if you are my friend and read this, don't even ask to see me. I'm freaking tired.

Thursday Yesterday

was one of the most pointless days, ever. I feel as if nothing was for a purpose and all I accomplished was messing around with my tent and petting these adorable kittens. I WILL have one. But basically my mother wanted me to drive her somewhere, like always.. and  I was in a bad mood so  I was like sure, I'll drive you and get this out of my system. (It was about 9:20 at this time) and we drove to like morganfield and back, for NOTHING! Honestly, I don't know why people can't run their own errands. Because all it was, was a waste of gas and time. I didn't get home until almost 11 and not actually asleep til near 1. so thats LOVELY considering I have to work today from 4-10. At least I can camp as I please now, out in the lovely wilderness. we'll see. I'm just really annoyed today and sleepy, so sorry if i'm a butthead! The end

When I'm a crazy cat lady....

This is what will happen to all of my kitties. I'm picturing a million cats just roaming around my yard with these lion wigs on their heads.

May sucks and old people talk

        I feel really weird being in highschool throughout may because last year I had to skip out on the whole entire month, meaning I didn't take any tests at the end or any sort of scheduling stuff, I still passed, without doing any school work the entire time. It just is weird and foreign to me. Which, April and May both have always sucked for me because these are the months everyone in my family just dies. Surprisingly no one's gone yet. Though some are extremely close...
        I keep thinking about my great grandparents.. All that's left are the women. Men all went first. They're all such sweet, independent, adorable old ladies.. I wanna be like them when I'm old. I thought of that last night. I just wanna grasp as much as I can from them before they go. They all lived such interesting lives though. Had all these stories to tell.. I hope I have stories to tell.. I hope I'm as much of an inspiration to my grandkids as mine are to me, whether I've showed it very much or not. When Grandma cricket and Mamaw James go, I think i'll cry. I never cried at a funeral before until last year.. but then again that funeral was killing two birds with one stone in my mind. I just feel differently about my grandmothers. There's a different connection, I'm closer with them, I aspire to be more like them. And maybe just maybe it'll push me at that point to do so.
       

Nicknames.. There are a few.

Can someone tell me why i come up with so many for people?
Everyone at least has one, if not more.
-First it started in soccer camp, me and my friend rachel were coming up with names for our team, everyone kept theirs to this day surprisingly. Squirt was a good friend.
-Then everyone in my friends liked the same tv show 2 years ago, so we each had a nickname based on a character of that show. That faded.
-Then we had fruit nicknames shortly after. I was strawberry because at the time I had red hair.
-After that I stopped for a while then just this year I've been basing people off of animals, you see theres always a kitten a lion and a leopard. Cats are my favorite and really their own situation. But everyone will remind  me of something.
-Then anyone and everyone could have an old person nickname.. As soon as I looked at a person, I'd picture them old and then give them a name accordingly. I'm Loula Mae. I keep forgetting other peoples names.
-Second to the last set of nicknames was the starting with Cha-"name or part of name" such as, micaela was chamaela.
-Now lately I've been giving  people nicknames based on food. Such as cheeseburger fries and spaghetti beer. But that's not very fitting at all. So I think i'll just stick to everyone's name from now on.

Sleep

This will be all about sleep and things related to sleep. First off, I need some. My sleep has been very little lately. So little that about a week ago I had to sleep in class for the first time, EVER! It's causing some weird things to happen. I'm not dreaming as much either... not really at all. since I got this job almost a month ago, I've been sleeping horrible and not dreaming. It really makes me mad to not be able to dream. Because as a lot of people know I used to dream about 3 super vivid dreams every single night. And now, I've dreamed MAYBE 4 times since i've started working. I think it's due to not sleeping enough or well enough. All I can say is I'm ready for summer so I don't have to wake up so darn early and can sleep in a little more. Goodness gracious y'all.

It's time

to make a pros and cons list!